Little One

**Little One**

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Wish my mom was here… I know u can always count on her to make me smile and laugh when I am feeling down.

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Plumb - Beautiful History Lyrics

I have made mistakes and I have been afraid
I have felt alone then You called my name
Things were crashing loudly, happening all around me
But Your still small voice was all that I could hear

I am here, I’m holding you
You’ll make it through this, I am here, I am here
I am here, I’m holding you
You’ll make it through this, I am here, I am here

Whenever you run away
Whenever you lose your faith
It’s just another stroke of the pen on the page
A lonely ray of hope is all that you’ll need to see a beautiful history

Well, I’ve been such a fool when I’ve known the truth
I’ve wasted so much time doing what I wanted to
I’ve been living solely for myself and myself only
But Your still small voice is whispering

Whenever you run away
Whenever you lose your faith
It’s just another stroke of the pen on the page
A lonely ray of hope is all that you’ll need to see a beautiful history

I toss and turn and scream, I try to do everything
With two feet on the ground I just keep falling down again
I feel so far from home, completely all alone
And then I hear You say I am here, I am here

Whenever you run away
Whenever you lose your faith
It’s just another stroke of the pen on the page
A lonely ray of hope is all that you’ll need to see a beautiful history
A beautiful history, a beautiful history

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Next week :’(

Haven’t been on here in a while… A lot has happened lately. Had a mini break down session tonight as I an laying in my bed trying to get sleepy. I’m NOT looking forward to next week…

I have always gotten nervous and stuff before my moms surgeries and procedures but this one is different… It is HUGE, her last hope of getting any relief from pain, even a little and I’m a mess. I have cried myself to sleep for a while now. I can’t stand the thought of seeing her go through this. Yes I know it is for the better in the end, we hope. But I can still have my moment of being worried! Emotions build up over time.

They said it is going to be roughy, it is like going through withdrawal. I’m just realllly glad she won’t remember a lot of it in the end. I pray and pray that it gives her any form of relief. She deserves it and needs it. It is hard to go home and see your mom slowly not being able to walk or her pain is so high that a hug hurts. It’s breaks my heart.

She has asked me over and over if I a
Okay and ready for next week. I have the tendency to hold all emotion inside, which is bad, but I have to stay strong for her and my dad (he is counting on it) So bed time is my only time to get emotions out…

I’m scared to see her go through the withdrawal, the not knowing of what is going on, imagining things, the sickness, and whatever else might happen. I know she is in a good hospital and great doctors are watching her all the time.

I worry about my dad who won’t be able to be up at the hospital much to visit because of his 2 jobs. He is counting on me…

This treatment will work, it has to!!!!!!!!

Sorry for the vent session.

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Sunset out of the second floor window at work. Love love love these. Makes the bad in the day go away…

Sunset out of the second floor window at work. Love love love these. Makes the bad in the day go away…